the turth it no longer thrills me

[scinlae]

If your greatest enemy arrived here and you had a chance to make them pay for all that they have done, knowing that their death will only be temporary, would you do it? Would you take the chance? Or would you let them live?

[ It frustrates her, not knowing what to do now that he is here. On the one hand she wants to kill him, she wants to make him suffer; for lying to her, for poisoning her, for ruining every one of her plans. (It was him! It was always him!)

Yet on the other hand... on the other hand she doesn't, some lingering feelings want to forgive him. But can she? Does she have the capacity to forgive him after everything? ]

Could you forgive them? For all the harm they have caused to befall you? For all the loss and torment?

I find myself at a cross roads with no idea where to turn, however I want to pose these questions to you Paradisa.

What would you do?

Comments

[untilmydarknessgoes]

Well, I don't know. Some of the fun of revenge gets sucked out of it when they just pop back up like a daisy, doesn't it?

[scinlae]

Indeed and there in lies my dilemma.

[not here]

[magicus]

[ MORGANA PLS. Watching people debate the value of his life will make for a really charming evening of reading, thanks loads for that. ]

[not here]

[scinlae]

[ You're welcome, she'd do anything for a friend. ]

dictated whether Morgana likes it or not

[inafadingcrown]

Do you truly need more blood on your hands, my lady?

r u d e

[scinlae]

My hands are already covered in it, what is a little more?

Morgana

[persequor]

I'd kill him. [ Every two weeks. Like clockwork. Fuck Joffrey. B( ]

Arya

[scinlae]

Without hesitation?

Dictated

[unnaturalpause]

What would you gain by killing them except momentary relief? Would you attempt to kill them again once they were back? [How far would you take this revenge, Morgana?]

[scinlae]

It is not relief I seek, it is retribution.

[reigne]

[...He feels compelled to answer her. Because they've been dancing at a standstill for months now, and because...Because he has never learned how their last encounter ended. He'd never asked her, after he arrived, and she'd never volunteered the information.

Because he'd always believed he could save her from the path she'd travelled down on, and that he should have noticed she'd started it. If anything he says makes a difference- He should, despite the state of things]

I would let them live. [Because, technically, let's be honest here...He already has. ] Even if death became permanent here.

[He'd say more, but- For the moment, he leaves it. He doesn't believe she'll listen to anything he says very easily]

[scinlae]

[ Arthur's reply gives her pause, makes her stop and think, to envelope herself in silence as her mind wraps itself around his answer. Let them live. Let Merlin live after everything he has done to her.

Let her live.

Even before he forget everything he had let her live, he did not strike her down when she was at her weakest. And now? Now he is doing the same thing, whether he knows it or not.

But he has not forgiven her, not that she ever expects his forgiveness. ]

And then what?

Dictated

[the_effect_she_has]

Will it change anything?

[Her voice is quiet.] Will it make things better? For you, and for the world around you?

[scinlae]

Perhaps, but in truth I cannot know for sure.

dictated

[wilder]

[There's a long pause as he thinks of how to say it]

Just for revenge? No. I can't forgive him and I'm not against for eye for an eye, buuuut losing himself to his own vengeance caused it all in the first place. I don't wanna end up like that.

But...if it was to stop him from slaughtering more people? I'd try to cut him down as many times as it takes.

[scinlae]

[ That is the most helpful thing anyone has said, expect it isn't. Though it does make some sense to her. ]

That is a wise choice. [ She has seen herself become consumed by her revenge, part of her still is, she knows how much it can destroy a person. ]

Your answer contradicts itself a little, sir, but I believe I understand. Your enemy is someone who has killed many, and to stop him from killing more you are willing to carry a stigma upon yourself and kill him over and over again.

Morgana

[heloise]

[ Oh, Morgana, now you're just adorable. ]

I would murder them every fortnight.

Lucrezia

[scinlae]

[ Isn't she just? ]

You would deny them forgiveness?

written; GLORIOUSLY

[ensorceler]

Enemies are no good to you alive, are they? If justice is on your side, then they must be gotten rid of, whatever that implies.

What do you imply by 'temporary'? Are we speaking figuratively?

written;

[scinlae]

I would not go so far to say justice is on my side. [ It is mostly against her, in the laws of Camelot at least. ] Nevertheless they are my enemy still, my destiny and my doom as I have been told.

I am afraid not this place, Paradisa, it does not conform to rules of death. People still die, yes, but the dead do not remain dead. After two weeks they return as they were; fully and alive.

written; HI NEW SISTER IN LAW.

[commandsthewind]

It has been... a very long time since I have hesitated to strike against my enemies. But I prefer to only do so when there is a good and just reason for. Blood is paid in blood, and people will be as unforgiving as you about such matters should you wish to strike.

written; HI, HOW IS IT GOING?

[scinlae]

So my choices are the mob or to forgive, knowing the words will do nothing to heal the wounds that have been inflicted upon me?

/feels

[emboldens]

I would choose to let them live.

[ Does this answer come as a surprise to her? No matter, this is something she thinks she needs to hear. ]

And yes, I would also forgive. No one is immune to loss or tragedy. The only thing that separates each person is how they decide to combat it. .. I would fear that, if I did not forgive, that rage would consume everything that I am until I was no more.

[ Her voice softens as she continues: ] It is never too late to forgive, Morgana.

[scinlae]

[ Your heart is too kind ─ the words linger on her lips, threatening to spill out but never do. There is an amusing irony in her words that almost makes her laugh, almost. ]

I fear you may be wrong, my lady, I fear there is a time where forgiveness is no longer an option.

[cheerupemoborg]

I would certainly try. As for forgiveness... I doubt it.

[scinlae]

Why? They would return within two weeks? Would that make your killing them pointless?

[sawadeertoday]

[ Oh, hm. This sounds awfully familiar. And that, and only that, is what makes her dictate, ]

I never would have forgiven them initially. Although this castle has a tendency of forcing things on you- so your decision doesn't always matter, in the end.

I tried to kill my own. We ended up married.

[ Rather matter of factly. ]

You have to be ready to deal with your enemy multiple times if you actually kill them, though.

[scinlae]

The castle cannot force me to forgive. [ It is spit out venomously, no matter what it does to her she will never forgive unless she truly wants too. ]

[onlyanapple]

That depends on how much you think your conscience can handle it, I suppose. Killing someone, it stays with you for the rest of your life, regardless of if it's temporary or not.

[scinlae]

I have already killed many. [ Her voice rings hollow saying it, proof that it already does weigh heavily on her even though she thinks it shouldn't. That is the problem with her; Morgana of Paradisa and Morgana of Camelot are both different yet the same but can never settle, and so they clash, making it hard for her to decided who she is supposed to be. ]

[solowingpixy]

[His reading of this entry and snooping on the resulting responses would teach him something new, on top of having a topic that grabs his attention.]

Death is temporary here, huh? [What a cop-out.]

If that's the case, unless he's actively out to kill you as well, then I fail to see the point in attempting to carry out empty acts of revenge.

Though I would not seek to do so myself in this place.

[scinlae]

Indeed, the castle wishes to keep us alive and will go to extreme lengths to keep it that way.

[ It is the biggest cop-out. ]

What would you do then instead?

[vengefully]

It would be pointless to kill them here— but I doubt I could forgive them.

[scinlae]

So if you will not kill them, nor could forgive them, what would you do?