paradisa | THIRTEENTH SHOT

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THIRTEENTH SHOT

[Dictated]

Some of you have really absurd names, you know that?

It's weird enough that some of you just have ridiculous hippy names like "Howl" or "Cloud" or "Vicious" or "Firethroat" or whatever but then there's all these pretentious names that are really titles. Not just a doctor, The Doctor, and there's a Fifth and a Tenth but who knows what happened to the others.

And then there's not just some guy named Lorax, but he's The Lorax. What the fuck is a Lorax in the first place? Fuck if I know, but maybe I should be honored to live up the hall from not only a Lorax but The Lorax. He sounds like a cleaning product mascot, like Mr. Clean.

I almost wish the castle had kept my nameplate Dog Eat Dog just so I could have a ridiculous name plate. I mean, mine doesn't even include a last name normally. Or maybe changed it to something smoother: Queen of Boston. The Queen of Boston.

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Advice that doesn't really apply to me. Because I actually live and work with decent people who wouldn't manipulate me like that. Yes, I know what you're going to say, they're doing it without me realizing it, but they're not the problem. My government's not really much of a problem, either- living in another galaxy means having relatively little contact with my employers.

[Another galaxy? What the fuck.

Tess scoffs.]

Of course, corruption is something that would only happen to other people, not people you work with.

I'm not saying it's not possible, just that it's never happened to me. I've never seen the value in being inherently suspicious of everyone.

You should. It's the closest thing to foresight humans will ever have.

I don't want it to ever become a necessity to live like that.

I know, I know, what I want and what might actually happen are two different things.

But... I can't bring myself to think like that. Maybe that'll be my undoing somewhere down the road. Maybe it will never be an issue. Maybe I'll be forced to at some point in my life. But right here, right now, my biggest worries are the smaller picture.