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[So, he'll start off writing...]

this is actually fuckin ridiculous yet in a wway completely an utterly hilarious
youre all just freakin out cause the sun didnt rise an the lights arent wworkin
oh boo hoo our precious ball a lights gone an abandoned us
wwhale tough fuckin luck to evveryone wwho relies on a ball a plasma an magnetic fields so much they cant handle it wwhen it doesnt brighten up their day
im perfectly comfortable in this kinda envvironment thats wwhat they call superior genetic evvolution or somethin

[But wait, what's that noise? It almost sounds like it's nearby. As he speaks, the journal makes sure everyone can hear him.]

Wwhat the fuck is that?

[It's almost like...]

Uh...

[A really familiar sound...]

...

[...dead silence, everyone...]

OH GOD NO!!

[Of course it's all just castle induced paranoia, but he was sure he just heard the sound of a chainsaw revving in the distance. In a panic he's flipped his table, which the journal was sitting on, and shrieked in a pretty high pitched tone of voice.

Also if by some chance you're going to check up on him, he's cowering on the floor. Happy friday the 13th y'all.]

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[He sees Eridan is alright and relaxes. Still worried, but he's not as near panic as before.]

Sorry, man. You sounded really freaked; I was worried, 'cause there's weird shit happening today.

...You okay?

Yeah it's all cause a' this castle tryin' to mess wwith people an' shit, I keep hearin' fuckin' chainsawws or wwhatevver.

[Deep breath, and then a sigh.]

Howw're you holdin' up?

Yeah, I ain't been hearin' nothing but I keep catching glimpses of... things out of the corner of my eye. And freakin' chills. It's definitely messing with us, so I'm trying not to let it get to me.

[It has though, just a little. Mostly because of what he's seeing out of the corner of his eye. He's awkward about it, but he moves to settle in, kind of hoping Eridan doesn't tell him to leave. It's better together, right?]

[He's kept people here with arguments just so he'd have some company; like hell he'd mind if someone wants to stay willingly. Especially his ~~moirail?~~]

I'm glad you're here actually, there wwas somethin' I wwanted to tell you.

...

[Clears his throat.]

You remember howw I told you...there wwas a guy back wwhere I'm from wwho I actually got really pissed off at...an' may have injured really badly, before I kinda lost it an' culled...uh...you knoww. Certain people.

[Kanji seems to lose a little more tension when Eridan doesn't object. He's happy and relieved to spend time with his friend (who might be more?, but hell if he'll ever be able to tell the difference. ~~troll relationships are weird~~) and to listen to whatever he has to say.]

Yeah, I remember. Think you've mentioned him a couple times now. Something come up?

[He's looking away cause urgh admitting this disgusts him but he ~~hopes~~ figures you'll give him some kinda props for it.

Seriously if it wasn't for Kanji he would've just been his obnoxious douche self.]

Sorta. I, uh...kinda got into an argument wwith him an' shit like usual 'cept wwe both got a wwhole load angrier than usual an' the wwhole thing came up.

...

So I thought about wwhat you said an'...

Wwell...

I calmed the fuck down an' apologized for it. An' I guess if it wwasn't for you I wwouldn't a' evver done somethin' like that.

So...

[HNNNGH...]

...thanks.

[Whoa, he did it? He helped a friend start growing? It feels amazing, and he's really, really happy for Eridan. The calming down bit makes him think that maybe this is the moirail thing between them, but it falls on the wayside from the happy-pride-whee-I-helped-someone feeling.]

Wow. That's... That was really strong of you, man. First steps are the hardest. Glad I could help.

[He's utterly sincere and has the biggest smile.]

Proud of you, an' you should be too.

[Kanji, man, you are the best.

THIS EXPRESSION JUST SAYS EVERYTHING.]

[Okay he really needs to calm the fuck down and get with the program.]

It's not like I wwant to be that douchefins friend or anythin' noww I just wwanted him off a' my back.

But I think it might a' wworked.

So...it's a big deal if he'll leavve me the fuck alone finally.

[...damn, Eridan can be cute when he's not blustering. Kanji smiles warmly, but can't help shaking his head just a little. Baby steps, gotta remember the baby steps.]

I hope he does, then. Sometimes just having someone who pisses you off all the time knocking it off is the best thing. That happened with me once.

[And he considers the person in question one of his closest friends.]

Really? It's fuckin' odd howw much wwe havve in common sometimes I swwear.

Y'knoww minus a lot a other stuff that isn't similar at all.

But that's all the unimportant stuff I guess.

That's part of bein' friends, you know. Finding the shit you've all got in common with each other. And then sharin' what you like, and lettin' 'em share what they like. Sometimes you find new stuff you didn't even know you liked before!

Yeah it all sounds great in theory I guess, I don't see wwhy it wwouldn't wwork.

Just y'knoww trolls kinda consider friendship as a fuckin' disease that requires careful observvation an' containment otherwwise it'll spread like fuckin' wwildfire an' wwhat havve you.

Is that like the thing where the word for friend is the same for enemy? But if it's some kinda disease, it's somehow a good one that makes you healthier and stronger. Of course it spreads though, 'cause havin' friends feels good.

I don't knoww if I wwould consider havvin' yourself open to that many people is a good thing.

One or twwo seems fine to me but honestly that is a lot a fuckin' vvulnerability.

It... yeah, it can be. They tend to know how to hurt you best. But it makes you stronger too. Would you go and face down a whole army all on your own? Wouldn't it be better facing them with people you really, really trust to have your back?

That's what's friends are like. They've got your back, and you've got theirs. There is a risk, but there're benefits too.

Yeah but you really havve nothin' to go by in that scenario, I mean they can say they havve your back but really wwhat good is their wword in the end.

There are people who do that kind of awful shit, and I ain't gonna say there aren't. But most people--most humans, anyway--realize that you get left freakin' alone if you betray your friends. Most people know how important it is to be loyal to 'em so they don't even think about backstabbing.

[And maybe he's a little too naive and idealistic, but he doesn't even want to live in a world where he's horribly wrong.]

Sometimes people make mistakes and do stupid shit without thinking, but if they ain't going into it planning on ruinin' your shit, they ain't really being backstabbers, you know?

But howw do you knoww they aren't goin' into it thinkin' a' ruinin' your shit?

I mean fuck evven as an example Ara is bein' all friendly wwhich quite frankly I guess wwould be not suspicious cause I don't knoww wwhat the fuck she wwas like since wwe nevver spoke back home but...

...still she could be fakin' it.

Part of it's havin' a little trust, but in my experience, the fakers will slip up. Lies can't stay hidden forever, no matter how good somebody is at 'em.

I guess.

Seems pretty fuckin' risky to me though.

I'm not sure if I'm okay wwith that idea.

Think I'll just keep all these jerks at arms length for as long as I can, especially other trolls.

Maybe you gotta go slow, one little step at a time, or whatever. Nothin' saying you gotta go out and befriend everybody. Just get to know people first and be open to being friends with the ones that seem the most trustworthy.

Wwho seems trustwworthy? Wwell, there's you...

[Pause.]

An' that one scalebeast. Evveryone else seems as fuckin' untrustwworthy as they come.

Scalebeast? Oh, the dragon, you mean? Yeah, he's cute.

[He's thinking of Spike the dragon, though.]

And that's a start. Maybe you'll find someone else someday. Just don't close yourself off to the possibility, you know?

Cute? I didn't evver think a' it like that.

But hey if you find that kinda thing cute that's your fuckin' opinion I guess.

[He's thinking of toothless...although despite the fact he doesn't look it, the way he acts is kinda cute? Maybe?

Really Eridan just loves having a coddamned dragon as a friend.]

I guess. Just makin' a list a friends isn't exactly top fuckin' priority for me right noww.

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