Forty Fourth Sip

[mal_addict]

[Maladict really isn't in much of a better mood. She's tried to focus on other things, however, to keep her mind off wanting to punch certain stupid people in the face multiple times. She's sitting in the dining room, sipping a cup of coffee, doodling vague turtle shapes in her journal as she dictates]

Does anyone else find their attitude towards going home changes the longer they stay here? Not exactly contentment, but...I don't know. Almost a sort of familiarity? I wonder if that just comes naturally after getting used to this place, living here for so long, or if it's something the castle itself is doing to our minds. Trying to lull us into a false sense of security. Make us want to say.

[Though she's still homesick, though she misses the Disc and have people understand her culture and her way of life without having to explain it...she doesn't feel the same drive to leave as she once did. She doesn't like it, it's worrying]

Something to think about.

Comments

dictated

[20thcentury]

[Well, that is worrying.]

How long have you been here?

[mal_addict]

About a year and a half, now.

[20thcentury]

And you'd say this was a sort of gradual thing, or did you just wake up one day alright with everything?

[save_the_souls]

[a pause before he'll reply to this. He's not really feeling social, but he kinda knows what he's talking about here]

I think it's normal...to start to feel a sense of familiarity after you been in this place for so long. It would happen to me when I would stay in a new city for a longer time than usual on Earth.

[mal_addict]

I don't stay in one place for very long. It's...new. [It's the first time she's really had a solid place to call home]

[save_the_souls]

Mm...I can understand that. This is the longest I've spent in a single place.

[direwolfbastard]

I haven't been here all that long, but I've found myself thinking of this myself.

I've been in the service of the Night's Watch for the past two years. It's cold, it's isolated, and my brothers are my only company. Despite this I find myself having difficulty adjusting to life here. I'm not used to being provided for. I'm sure if I could ever be used to it.

[mal_addict]

I can understand that, I'm in the army, myself. I'm used to it being me and my regiment, struggling to make ends meet. Besides, playing with magic is never wise where I come from.

[direwolfbastard]

In my home, "magic" often comes with a price of some sort. One most wouldn't pay if they knew it. I've no doubt that the magic at work here comes with a similar caveat, that we're just not allowed to know. If the protectors of this realm were perhaps better organized, I might consider joining them, if for no other reason than the familiarity, but I've heard that they've been having difficulties of late.

[hard_talker]

Familiarity? Yeah, maybe. But gettin' my room crashed by fuckin' crazy people is NEVER gonna feel normal.

[mal_addict]

...You what?

Sarge, to end

[hard_talker]

Yeah. One of the newbies went all high-and-mighty on me. I gave her an earful, and then when I didn't say anything after she tried to keep it up, she ... I don't know, fucking zapped herself into my room out of nowhere in a ... like, a bolt of lightning or some shit.

[he draws a line up to Jenny's comment]

That's her writing, right there.

[brute_shot_bully]

Not all futures worth going home to. [Low, rough, bitter. His time here hasn't exactly been roses and butterflies, but it's definitely the lesser of the two evils, given what he has in store for him back at Project Freelancer.]

[mal_addict]

Yes, I have been told that, extensively.

[brute_shot_bully]

Different for you? [Sometimes he forgot other people might actually have something pleasant waiting for them.]

[caligulas_aquarium]

the last thing i wwant to do is go home
this place fuckin sucks but back there sucks evven wworse
so im takin the lesser a twwo evvils

[mal_addict]

That's...an interesting way to take it. My home isn't that bad, though.

[caligulas_aquarium]

yeah i bet it isnt but im guessin some people feel the same wway as i do
though i bet theyre all sayin it for fuckin stupid reasons that are pretty much meager as shit by comparison

idly dictated;

[kalinda]

If this place apparently has the power to control our minds, how far-fetched would an inevitable brainwashing be?

[mal_addict]

Not far at all, if you ask me. It's done it before.

[kalinda]

[Oh, gosh. Way to fiddle with the already dubious newbie.]

...of course it has.

dictated;

[gevurah]

Not really. You get used to this place somewhat, but it's not home. [ And it's never going to be. Not for her. ]

[mal_addict]

See, I thought that for the longest time. In fact, I still couldn't call it 'home'. But...it's not as bad as it used to be.

[payback]

I would say that's "adapting."

[mal_addict]

That puts a nice sheen on it, doesn't it?