enemywithin[It takes a few moments, but eventually the walking around finally stops. An ominous opening, sure, especially since you know. Journals and all.]
Okay. Here's where I am. What I've got so far.
I'm smack dab in the thick of Old Testament Hell, staring up at shit hittin' the fan, screamin' at the top of my lungs. Next thing I know, I'm yelling at the ceiling of some fancy fuckin room, and I ain't neck deep in hellfire and brimstone no more. All of it in an instant, faster than a blink. Can't say that's ever happened before neither.
Now see, that's when the thinkin' starts. I know three things for sure. One, I'm not dreamin'. Two, I'm not crazy. Three, I ain't dead. And any sensible human being would realize that narrows down the explanation to fuckin' nothin. So, does that make me a senseless human being...or am I neck deep in a whole other kind of shit?
But then, then I see this fat fuck of a book on some bedside table. And then I take a look outside, there's my name on the door. Jackie Estacado. And what happens when I take a look inside the book? I think you all know by now.
Now, this is where I get stuck. Just cause I understand what it can't be, doesn't mean I understand what it is. And see, I got this pressin' thing going on in my life, so unless someone is handy with the answers, I'm going to have to start workin' on getting my own. The old fashioned way.
And trust me, none of us want that.
[A bit more walking, and a deep breath as he eases into a chair.]
So what is it goin' to be?